Today I'm seeing all my iniquities
I'm starving and I'll never be thin enough
Regret is running me over like a truck
If I could only go back and change it all
I want to puke
How could I be so stupid?
Obsessive, desperate, annoying... "always on"
Those are my problems
Those are my self-identifying terms
Those are holding me back from becoming anything else
Racing toward a finish line I can't find
I sabotaged myself, knowing I couldn't let me be happy
I could punish myself by swearing loneliness forever
It wouldn't be the first time
The question I can never seem to answer