Monday, March 22, 2010

 

 

The Day Before

Weight:  213.6

 

So I've finally had it.  My back has had it.  The doctor told me today I need to build my core rock solid, or I'm in serious danger of being bed-ridden and needing back surgery.  Not only that, but I've now gained nearly 35 pounds since my lowest weight two summers ago.  I feel sluggish and exhausted all the time.  Because of the back pain, I'm on medication all the time, which makes me feel like not eating, so when I finally do feel hungry, I gorge and just don't care anymore, and eat horribly.  I haven't been on a real steady workout plan in months.  Frankly, I just feel like shit.  I feel old and slow, and I just don't want to end my twenties this way.  I feel unattractive, and my sex drive has been nil.  I feel as though I'm too out of shape to accomplish anything.  I spend all of my money on eating out, shopping for ever-bigger clothes, junk food, and pain medication.  I'm sick of this.  I'm sick of being sick, and I won't accept it anymore.  I'm going to get better, healthier, more attractive, launch my new business, and get out of this cyclical rut I've fallen into.  Starting right now, my life will be different.  And this time, I mean it.