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Journal (February 2003)
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My Journal for February 2003

February 3, 2003
It's Monday once again.  Yee haw.  (Sarcasm...duly noted.)  Not a lot going on, I suppose.  I really don't like weekends, unless there is a call for them, because they mess up my week.  I'm always tired on Mondays, and I just tend to feel off.  I wish I could save up all of my weekends and use them when I feel like I need a break.  So parents came for kareoke last Friday night.  We had a ton of fun, but there were a lot of people there this week.  My first week there, fifteen people may have been present, but Friday I would guess there were closer to sixty or seventy.  The bar can definitely hold that many, but it makes one have to wait forever to get an opportunity to sing.  But they were good times...yeah, good times. (SNL fans, can I get an amen?)  I spent the rest of my weekend loafing around and doing just about nothing constructive.  I did get some reading done and went grocery shopping, but that's about all of my escapades.  Now I have to wait two and a half hours to take an Italian test.  Oh what fun!
February 19, 2003
There are only six more days until the appointment with my surgeon.  I'm getting a little anxious now.  It sucks that if I weren't in school I would be having surgery in three weeks, but now I have to wait until May.  But I can deal.  I'm good at playing the waiting game.  Lord knows I've been playing for quite some time now.  What is really hard is watching my friends that I've met along the way that started after me and are now meeting major goal marks, like fifty pounds lost, or one year anniversaries, and I'm still waiting to meet my surgeon.  It gets very frustrating sometimes.  My friend Janet just had her surgery last week and is doing great.  She doesn't regret it at all, like a lot of people initially do.  I'm glad for her, yet jealous too!  (By the way, congratulations Janet!)  I've also had serious developments since my last pathetic ramblings over Natalie.  I've since called her twice in Mexico.  I probably shouldn't have, but I'm a lot better for it now.  We were talking for only a few minutes, and the whole damn conversation was so forced.  We weren't connecting at all.  It's weird, but I just don't feel those strong feelings for her anymore.  I don't like to listen to all of the old songs that remind me of her.  I actually turn them off when I hear them.  I think the calls just ended a chapter in my life that I feel had never really been closed.  I also talked to a friend, Mandy, that I had a crush on in Mexico.  We flirted like crazy when we were there, but we never followed through, due mainly to my Natalie obsession.  Well, we talked for about an hour last night.  She told me that she got back with her old boyfriend, and now they are engaged.  Big bummer!  Well, I mentioned about how flirtatious we had been, and how I regretted never having asked her out, and she said "Danny, why didn't you ever ask me?"  Hahahaha, my jaw must have dropped about three inches.  She almost said it in a way that she couldn't understand why I hadn't.  I almost told her that I didn't think she would be interested, but I didn't want to go into all of that.  We laughed, and even flirted some more a little, and she told me that she won't be married for another year and a half, and who knows what will happen between now and then.  I told her if things don't work out with her boyfriend, I'm available.  She said she would definitely keep me in mind.  Needless to say, I've been on a complete natural high since then.  For some reason I feel more attractive today, and I'm "strutting my stuff", so to speak.  Oh well, c'est la vie!  Gotta grab some grub.........  Peace out!
February 24, 2003
It's 12:30 in the morning, so technically my appointment with the surgeon is tomorrow.  I am getting nervous to say the least.  I just hope everything goes off without a hitch.  I'm really tired and tomorrow (today) I have to get seriously cracking on my thesis.  I've been doing a little research, but I haven't written anything solid yet.  If I want to finish my first draft before the end of vacation, I'm really going to have to be serious about it.  I've also been trying to be more strict with my diet, but it's so hard.  For one thing, I'm completely snowed in because nobody plows the sidewalks when the school is on vacation.  I'm hoping it warms up in the next couple of days, or I won't be able to eat or go to the library.  That's going to suck.  I've also been trying to finish the second book of The Lord of the Rings trilogy.  I only have about sixty pages left, but it seems like that is the hardest part.  I also have a ton of reading I need to do for my classes, but I figured I would take it easy over the weekend and straighten myself out when the week starts up.  I've also got some very big, very painful, sores on the under-part of my belly, where the extra skin hangs over my lap.  (Sorry, if you weren't expecting that!  *LOL*)  They are just being a pain, literally.  That's the news in Dannyland.  (Oh yeah, I also put up a bunch of new pics on the bottom of my Photos [Pre-op] page.  Enjoy!)

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